We got up early and checked out a new church, came home, made lunch, and spent over 3 hours at the pool!
The best part of the day was a phone call from Leif. It was so nice to hear his voice and to be able to wish him a Happy Fathers Day! Although this is hard for us, I can't imagine how hard it is for him to have chosen such a selfless career, thrive at it, but ultimately have to sacrifice family time and memories for the sake of that career! I can hear the stress, guilt, and worry in his voice and it breaks my heart! He is such an amazing man and father. He is supportive, helpful, thoughtful, and involved! We are so blessed to have him and I am incredibly proud to be his wife!
BUT...yes, there is a "but"! More and more I can see how this isn't for the weak! I am incredibly sensitive and Unfortunately I have passed that on to Aiden! Kids will be kids and they really don't understand but sometimes innocent observations can really hurt!
Today at the pool a little boy said to Aiden "you can't go into the deep end because you don't have a daddy to go with you". He obviously meant nothing by it, but it really got to me and I could see the light disappear from Aiden's face. He was crushed! Of course he has a daddy..in fact he has the best daddy ever! I wanted to cry...for him, for me, for Leif, and even a little for the kid who has no idea how awesome Aiden's daddy is and really no idea how lucky he is to have his daddy in the deep end to catch him every day!
I did my best...I played Daddy in the deep end as often as I could! I rocked Easton to sleep and caught Aiden as he jumped off the side...pushed "E" in the stroller and back into the pool with Aiden! We had a really fun day and really made the most of a beautiful day...I may or may not have shed a few tears beneath my sunglasses...I'm only human! I'm strong but sometimes very weak...I am all about life lessons but also torn between being real and being overprotective! One of these days I will have more answers but right now I have a ton of questions and uncertainties! One thing is for sure, my boys have am amazing daddy. I pray that they are just like him when they get older...if my prayers are answered then all of the unanswered questions are worth it!