"A ship in port is safe; but that is not what ships are built for. Sail out to sea and do new things."--Grace Hopper
We have almost approached the 2 week mark since we sent daddy on his way and while that is certainly no huge milestone or countdown, it is progress and we settle into a new normal a little more everyday!
Both Leif and I agree that the send off was the hardest thing we have ever done. Mainly because it is so hard to explain this journey and time apart to an almost 4 year old and a 4 month old! Some days I have a hard time understanding it but i know that my frustrations are completely selfish and I really can handle this! So much will change over the next 8-10 months and we both know, like it or not, all of us will change during this deployment!
The morning of the send off we decided to head into the ship for breakfast with Daddy which meant we were all up at 4:30 and out the door by 5. The ride to the ship was quiet...what do you say to your husband when you know you won't see him for a very long time! All we could do was hold hands and hold back the tears! In our hurry to get out the door so early we forgot to pack Aiden's shoe so Daddy had to carry him down the pier...darn ;-)
And then it was just us...Leif and Teresa...the couple...the way it all started. For a short moment we were just two crazy kids in love...having our hearts separated, not by choice, but by duty and in my opinion, by honor! There was so much I wanted to say but none of it seemed appropriate. I wanted to sob in his arms and beg him to stay. I just wanted to say "don't leave us" but how fair is that? It's not a choice...we were called to serve...and he does it with so much more Grace than I! I wanted to say "we can't do this without you"...but that's a lie. We can and we will...I just don't want to! So I said what I thought he wanted to hear...it is the truth as much as I don't want it to believe it "we can do this, we will be ok...you focus on your job and I will focus on our family and everything here on the home front will be fine." "Do not worry about us and PLEASE BE SAFE".